God knows i couldn't handle that

cassidy — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 03:44:04 +0000

Having a child with a birthdefect has really opeded my eyes. Before I had my son I would say things like "I couldn't deal with something like that. (birth defect, mental contition,ect.) God knows that. Thats why he gave my two healthy children. (My first two)I wouldn't be able to handle it any other way. It takes a special person to deal with that" How silly of me! now I feel ashamed almost for thinking that way. I CAN and WILL deal with it. And that doesn't make me some unbelievably strong individual. It makes me a mother. Sure I was speechless, devestated even, when i saw my son's leg and foot for the first time thinking:how will he ever walk? Those feelings lasted maybe 15min then it was like: What are you crying for? how dare you! your son is healthy and beautiful and PERFECT! There are many other problems he could have had. My son is 13months now and such a joy in my life. He is already teaching me so much. He is so bright and happy and social. He is also more mobile than my girls were. I am constantly getting him out of the cabinets, tiolets, or chairs. Yesterday he had gotten up in my computer chair and onto the desk! He just smiled that great big smile as to say "look mommy look what i did!"Nothing slows him down. Who knows whats in store? Sometimes,ever now and then, not often I find myself worring about the future. Then I have to remined myself that this is what he knows. This is the way he was born. He doesn't know what its like to have two good legs. Everyone deals with hardships he is no exception. I have to catch myself and I don't allow my thinking to control me. I cant let my imagination make me feel emotions that I'm not yet faced with. I'll burn that bridge when I get there.

13 month old with pffd in r leg from lower mid class family

cassidy — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 17:21:20 +0000

If anyone has any information on resources for a child with pffd please let me know. My son had class c pffd that will require a new prosthetic each time he out grows one. He will also require surgery. We have been turned down for medicaid twice and are currently awaiting for word back from social security. We are looking into the shriners hospital. any suggestions?

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God knows i couldn't handle that

13 month old with pffd in r leg from lower mid class family